The other day I was driving home and some songs I used to dance to came on the radio. In my mind I flashed back to when I was engaged my husband and also working as a disc jockey. I love to dance. It's one of my favorite things in the world and I remember being full of dreams of dancing for the rest of my life with the man I had fallen in love with.
We had a long distance relationship, as so many military couples do, and since I was spending so much time with music I spent a lot of time dancing as well. Those day dreams of dancing with him came flying back. Sure, he couldn't dance yet but someday he would learn because I would teach him or we would take lessons and then we would spend the rest of our lives twirling away.
Life had other plans. There are days he struggles to even walk around our property line much the less swirling around the dance floor.
Even that reality doesn't take away my smile at the memories of my dreams of what would be. I smiled at how blessed I am to have him and while I might not be circling the dance floor these days and I laughed when I thought of him playing tricks with our children, and sometimes on them as well.
Sometimes old dreams aren't meant to be and we have to let them go and embrace what is to come. A new dream, a new vision for the future. For me it's a life in the country and enough time in the day to spend with my children, my husband, and my severe crafting problem. It's the dream of when he's working nights and it's raining outside so I can leave the window open and listen to the rain as I fall asleep. It's a campfire and laughing as our son tells the worst jokes in the world.
If we spend our time thinking on those old dreams and regretting what life has become doesn't do us any good. It holds us back from the happiness we can have now. This life is full of enough surprises and shocks. We spend enough time in hospital waiting rooms and finding innovative ways to keep one step ahead of the rest of the world to prevent chaos. Enjoy those new dreams, whatever they are. You're worth it.